Little-demons
mungkin aku terlalu berlebihan untuk menuliskan segala tentang aku dengan dia disini. ini belum seharusnya terjadi. harusnya aku melakukannya, menceritakan kisahku dengan seseorang yang memang sudah pasti kudampingi sepanjang hidupnya. seharusnya aku menceritakan kisah cinta nantinya ketika aku telah menjadi istri dari seorang lelaki. bukan sekarang ketika aku baru saja merasakan apa yang orang sebut pacaran dengan segala rasanya, jatuh cinta, kangen, dan lain sebagainya, yang mungkin belum seharusnya kita rasakan kepada orang tersebut, yang kita sendiri bahkan tidak tahu apakah hal tersebut memang dinyatakan secara tulus olehnya.
Well, I still have a big doubt to him
how come i don't have that feeling?
First, he ever said to me that he has a subtitute
Second, he ever accompanied his subtitute to they campus. even he asked permition to his boss to leave his office 30 minutes earlier. and you know the day before was my gladi resik graduation and he hadn't come. He picked her up in her office, he accompanied her to campus, and then he accompanied her to her house. In such those rainy day in that time. and you know, even there was no texting for me from him.
when i knew about the situation,he asked for my apologize. he said that he would never do that things anymore. He said that he really want to be together with me seriously. I don't give my apologize yet to him. I just said that he has to prove it
and today i dont know why i get this feeling to stalking that girl, my subtitute
and you know what I get? I saw several times he likes her status. I really don't like the fact. I just feel that he lie to me. I just feel when he besides me, it's just physiologycally but his thought his feeling it's full with her. or even there's maybe a little about me in his thought or feeling, but there's still a lot of parts belong to hers.
i said to myself if i have eyes behind my back then i could know all the things that happen behind my beck. and of course the things that he does.
well, still i'm not a God that know all of the things he does.
i dont know, is there any statement from him that I still could trust?
hanya menuliskan apa yang ingin saya tulis, apa yang terpikirkan, apa yang dirasakan. itu saja. as simple as it :)
